I am so ready for pool weather! If it's hot here, it's beyond windy. If it's not windy, then it's cold. Ugh! So done with this!!! This girl needs sunshine on her skin, and SOON! The pools should be open in a few weeks. In the meantime..... I have an inflatable pool, in the backyard. It's great. It's big enough for one float. Now, if the weather would cooperate......... I have running on my brain. I haven't really ran in close to 2 years. It really makes me sad, when I think back to 2 years ago. I was doing 7k's. I was on the road to a half. I did run a mile a few weeks back, at the gym. It did not feel good. I think that this time, training is going to be different. It's going to be FUN! I'm thinking less time on the treadmill (running, in general) and more Zumba and other cardio activities. I have mapped out a pretty good 4 mile route around my neighborhood that is very beautiful. There are 2 local half marathon's that I am interested in. One is in late March and it's more of a trail run and it's hilly. The other is in early May and it is literally all around town! I did it as part of a relay team, 2 years ago. Very fulfilling. I guess I'm just going to have to wait and see what God has in store for me :)

Unanswered Prayers.....

I have always loved the Garth Brooks song "Unanswered Prayers". The older I have gotten, the more I see that God may not be telling me "No", he could be telling me "Not now". I spent a good part of Thursday on the phone with and emailing SWA. It had been over 4 weeks, since my interview. I could not get any answers!!! One of the girls that I met at my interview was in her first week of training. She was tellingly about her experience, along with other people in training's experience's with SWA's unorganization. Around 9:00 P.M., I received a response to my earlier email. It was just apologizing for the delay and telling me that correspondence would go out, that night. Literally 2 minutes later, I got the dreaded, standard email. I had to reread it, several times, before it actually set in. I did cry. I think that it was a little bit a cry of relief. I have amazing friends that are always so supportive of me. The encourage me, the guide me, they love me. I texted several (and talked to one) and they're sweet words were such soothing comforts. A few are FA's with SWA and the shared in my shock. They all made me promise that I would not give up. Honestly, I know it's not time. I'm not ready to go 5 weeks without pay. I can reapply, in 6 months. My car will be paid off, in 6 months. God has a plan. He didn't tell me "No!", he told me "Not now"........